It’s not fair.

Today was such a great day. So many awesome things were done and I even was nice to Douche-Boyfriend, and then he goes and depresses my mom again. Can you please fucking stop it? We were having a perfectly great day.

Then he was shitty, and then later on our dryer broke, and I’m having a hell of a time trying to write this dumb paper. Everything is very frustrating. I wish it would do me a favor and stop.

 

We deserve happiness … why is it so hard to achieve for us?

 

I hope everyone out there is having a better weekend …

Well … Fuck Him Anyway!

So, today is the first day of February and my mom’s asshat of a boyfriend decided to dump her two weeks before Valentine’s. Ain’t he a prize. Well, here’s to the hope that he won’t wake her up at 4 or 5 in the morning and say “Oh baby I’m so sorry” blah blah blah blah blah.

Needless to say, she is distraught. Here is the playlist of the CD I burned her in case someone out there is also having a shitty February already, or was just single to begin with and would like some cool empowering songs. Included in this post are snippets of lyrics… and I was gonna write some but about halfway through I got burnt out so instead you get the playlist alone and maybe later I’ll give some reasonings. ALSO FEEL FREE TO POST MORE SONGS IN THE COMMENTS, because I discovered a couple of these tonight and I’m super glad I took a chance on ’em.

1.) Bang Bang Bang – Christina Perri
“All my life you know I haven’t been very love strong / There’s been so many fights that I fought and I never won”

2.) Since U Been Gone – Kelly Clarkson
“Here’s the thing, we started out friends / It was cool but it was all pretend”

3.) Over You – Daughtry
“Now that it’s all said and done / I can’t believe you were the one / To build me up and tear me down / Like an old abandoned house”

4.) No Good – Kate Voegele
“I never feared the unexpected/ Until I found myself in this peculiar place”

5.) Hit Me With Your Best Shot – Pat Benatar
“Well you’re a real tough cookie with a long history / Of breaking little hearts like the one in me”

6.) Smile – Lily Allen
“When you first left me / I was wanting more / But you were fucking that girl next door / What’d you do that for?”

7.) Number One – Skye Sweetnam
“I saw my boyfriend hanging with this girl that I hate / He didn’t have to tell me why last night he was late”

8.) What Doesn’t Kill You (Stronger) – Kelly Clarkson
“You know the bed feels warmer / Sleeping here alone / You know I dream in color / And do the things I want”

9.) Fuck You – Cee Lo Green
“I see you drivin’ ’round town with the girl I love / and I’m like, fuck you-oo, hoo-hoo-hoo”

10.) So What – P!nk
“So what / I’m still a rock star / I got my rock moves / and I don’t need you / and guess what / I’m having more fun / and now that we’re done / I’m gonna show you tonight”

11.) Gives You Hell – The All American Rejects
“Truth be told I miss you / and truth be told I’m LYIN'”

12.) Sucks To Be You – Danielle Peck
“I tried to love you baby / but I couldn’t make you happy / and it just really shouldn’t be so hard”

13.) Undo It – Carrie Underwood
“You stole my happy / you made me cry / took the lonely and took me for a ride”

Opinions! I hope you like it, I hope she likes it when she listens to it in the morning/at some point tomorrow. Have a good night and hopefully better luck in your love life in the future, lovely readers. Do post your own recommendations!

First day of junior year & a little more ranting.

Today was my first day of junior year, as the title suggests. My class lineup (for A days) is as follows:

  • AP Psychology
  • Algebra II
  • Creative Writing
  • Chemistry

Psychology was all right, mostly because I knew the teacher ahead of time and he’s a pretty funny guy. There are only two people in the class who I know at all and neither of them are really friendly to me. The rest are mostly seniors.

Algebra went okay. I have two friends in there from the couple years I’ve been locked away in Connecticut. I don’t know the teacher very well but she seems nice, and we have another student teacher this year just like freshman year and Algebra I. Unlike the freshman student teacher, though, this lady seems very reserved and meek.  I don’t know how helpful she’ll actually be to the class or if she’s open enough to be a teacher.

Creative writing was a wonderful course and I’m already so glad I took it. The teacher is an absolute delight and wickedly funny. Plus the fact we’ll be writing so much is just a great, great thing all by itself. Unfortunately, probably half of this class is full of kids who are seniors and only in the class for the credit. That’s worrisome to me, but I doubt it’ll affect me very much in this kind of class.

And finally chemistry, which I’m a little apprehensive about because the sciences have given me some trouble in the past years. I’m still in all accelerated courses (excluding the AP Psych and English which I have tomorrow) so it’s not a LOT of trouble, but I’m still worried mildly about it. The teacher seems nice, however, so that’s always a plus. She seems slightly reserved as well but has a chipper sense of humor.

I’m a little worried about tomorrow still, because there are four more new classes. (Rather, three – one is a study hall for the first semester and I’ll probably be resuming my job in the library during that time. Still, though, there’s a new library media specialist this year and that’s unfortunate.) But at least we have a three day weekend, so it’s kind of easing into the school year.

Now … for a little rant. You all know my mother from the previous post. She was a little less ridiculous and angry and shit tonight (rather, much less angry) but she still cares more about her Twitter personality and friends in other countries than her daughter. Granted I have been away for two months, but I still feel like she’s being a shit mom and it really sucks to feel like I don’t matter.

Oh well. Anyway, I’m going to relax for awhile before bed. Last night I had a hard time going to sleep (not falling asleep until a while after midnight) but fortunately I don’t think that’ll be a problem tonight.